Hey guys I know I just posted yesterday but alas I have news today.
Hey guys well you might be able to figure out already what this post is going to be about.
I am happy to say that the doctors didnt keep me waiting for my letter of refferal. But alas it is not the letter I was hoping for.
Bad news is that the doctor I saw was new and didnt know that things have changed here. The letter said it was not approved due to the fact they no longer do that kind of plastic surgery in my area anymore at our military bases. And they said they cant reffer me out in town to a civilian doctor. They said I could get it on my own but would have to pay the entire cost.
Ok yes I will be totally honest, I am upset about this and I know I got my hopes up. I did pray that if it was truely Gods will He would let the rest of this move smoothly. Well God has a different plan and I dont know the reasons why but the story is not over yet. Who knows it may still happen but later on down the road.
I love who I am, every inch of me and this doesnt change who I am. This doesnt change how I live my life or how I enjoy life to its fullest. This only encourages and inspires me to work harder and stay focused and allow that person who I truely am shine out of me. I know it may be a few days for me to truely get over this and let it go but it feels like a loss and with all losses it can take time to get over it.
I am a very smart, kind of funny, caring, loving, helpful, strong, powerful, motivated and beautiful woman, and nothing changes that. I know I am getting older, sure dont feel like it, and our bodies change so this is just a part of it.
Thank you guys so much for your kind words and all you love and support and prayers. Know I will be fine and boy this came at the wrong time since it is my time of the month, hehehehehehe, what an emotional roller coaster, wow.
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Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
I'm Back
Hey guys sorry I have been away for awhile but it has been crazy busy around here. I had a post all done and ready on saturday night and was just about to click post when the computer crashed and I got the blue screen of death. I was so upset because it was a long post with tons of pictures. Well I was so upset I cried and Ryan sent me to bed so he could work on it. I cried because ALL of our pictures are on that computer and Ryan was going to back it all up on sunday because we ran out of cds. So I had to wait for Ryan to get his laptop from work so I could get back on line. Sad thing is I dont even have the web addresses to all the things I need to go to because it is saved on the other computer.
But praise God we have someone from our church who works on computers for a living, it is his buisness. He told Ryan it is more than likely that major virus going around and he should be able to pull everything off of it so it wont be lost. He has already helped someone else from church that had the same problem and theirs is fixed now. So pray it can be saved and fixed.
So needless to say this post will be shorter then planned and obviously with no pictures to go with it. If it is not all lost then I will make a post later with all the pictures I wanted to post.
Like I said life has been busy and with Ian in school I still seem to not have enough hours in the day to get things done. Ian is loving school and is doing very well. Alex has been so upset that Ian is going to school and that he cant go. I thank God that He helped me find a mommy and me class I can tale him too that meets 2 times a week for an hour. He is learning so much and is having so much fun. We have had fun days of painting shirts and a fieldtrip to bates nut farm and it has a pumpkin patch. He had a blast and boy were we tired when we left almost 3 hrs later.
Well both my boys had their brithdays recently and yes I cried. Alex turned 2 on Sep 7th and we had a ball. He had an Elmo cake I made and he of course loved it. Ian turned 5 on Oct 12th and he wanted a Wall-e birhtday cake and it turned out very nice too. I will post pics later I hope.
On Ians bday I first went to train with my friend Shoshanna and Ryan joined us. We trained by running up a mountain trail doing alot of other exercises along the way, lunges, squats, pushups, kickes all while hold hand weights. It was a tough 1 hr 7 min workout but the view of the ocean was worth it all. I just loved how Ryan joined us and it was so fun to workout with him and have that semi alone time. After that we changed and we all walked the beach and took pictures and let the boys play too. We then left and had lunch and then went to a science place but it turned out to not be good and we left because Ian was not having any fun, neither were we.
But praise God there was a mall next door and they had 1.75 movies and we saw a kid one since we havent been able to go to a movie theater in a long time.
We came home and had dinner and opened gifts and they had cake. We stayed up as a family and watched movies together too.
Other then that things have been good and going just fine. I have just been training hard because camp is about 3 weeks away and I am very nervous.
Now with the big news. I wrote on Lauras blog that I had big news and a dear friend has been waiting long enough to find out.
AND NO I AM NOT PREGNANT. :)
Ok first there is nothing wrong with my heart. I wear a heart rate monitor for exercise purposes only. It is a thing that tracks your heart rate and lets you know if you are working in yur zone or if it is too low and you need to work harder or it is too high and you need to take it easy. It helps track how long you have workut for and how many calories you burned during your workout. It is a wonderful tool to have if you want to get really serious in yur workouts and to track how you are doing. The strap broke and I had to sew it back together and fix it until I can buy a new one.
Now for the recent update........
As some of you know and some may not know to date since Sep 2006 I have lost 120 lbs and gone from a size 24 to a 10 depending on the make since I can even get into some size 8s. I have not had sweets of any kind in almost 3 yrs ( Dec is my no sweets anniversary ), and eat very clean for the most part. My life has changed so much and this journey has been an amazing one and one with such growth.
Wednesday was weigh and measure day and the doc appt. Well I weighed myself and no change but barely .5 inch off of my waist, hips and calves. I was so mad, angry, upset, depressed and then I cried. I was upset that there was no real change after working so hard but then I was upset and cried because I let this affect me so much. I was upset because I let my sense start to control me and I almost felt ashamed to tell you guys. I felt defeated and didnt want to go to the doctors. But I stopped, wipped my tears and really thought about what was going on. I realized I have changed in so many ways and I am stonger and more fit, for goodness sake I lost my chest and I have so little on top now. I knew I could not let my feelings control me and had faith that one day my body would show all the hard work I was doing and will keep on doing. I am not going to stop or quit just because my body is late for the party.
So off I went to the doctors and prayed for good news and was willing to except what ever the outcome was. So the doctor saw me and took all my vitals and asked alot of questions. He told me I was in VERY excellent health and was very proud of me for all the hard work I have done and even shook my hand. He said I have made some hard life changes and kept up with it and was very proud of me. He looked me over and said I was good to go. I have a blood preasure of 108/67 and he was amazed since I am 31. He was happy to see i am in such great health with no physical problems and nothing holding me back.
So
Drum roll please.....
I have been given the refferal to see the plastic surgeons on base in San diego, Balboa, to have ALL the excess skin removed and on their dime.
WWWWOOOOOHHHOOOOO.
He told me I could not be anymore of a better candidate for the surgery and knows I will get the all clear. He said I have atleast 10 + lbs of excess skin alone on my tummy and a bit more on my inner thigh and butt. He said that what i see on my stomach is NOT fat but all the excess skin that just wont go away unless by surgery. He said no wonder you cant loose anymore inches off of my waist because there is no more fat to loose. I about cried and hugged the doctor when he said that.
He saw how my skin just pools when I am on all fours or when my leg is extended and it all hangs. He said he was happy to put in the refferal and knows there will be no problems when I see the plastic surgeons.
He said if in 2 weeks I havent got my refferal letter to call them and i will be taken care of. I would then make my appt with them and they would just give the all clear and then schedule me for my surgery. Now he doesnt know if they will do it all at once but I would know more when I see them. There could also be other areas they would need to take car of due to excess skin but the plastic surgeons would know more.
I left that doctors office on cloud nine and cried when I got to the car. All my hard work was finally paying off and I couldnt loose anymore in the areas that had all that excess skin. I felt so much better because I leaned on my faith no matter the outcome and i now get to see the fruits of my labor.
So as you can see this is big news and I am so excited and so is Ryan. I know if this is truely Gods will then the rest will all fall into place. I love who I am no matter if I have the surgery or not. I have prayed for so long about this and if I should even do it at all. But since learning so much and during my prayers and the people I have talked to I feel at peace about this. This will like the doctor said help stop any problems from arising before they happen and they will.
So the more I know the more I will keep you udated. and I will definately let you know the date when I do. Thank you for all your prayers and support and I love you all.
But praise God we have someone from our church who works on computers for a living, it is his buisness. He told Ryan it is more than likely that major virus going around and he should be able to pull everything off of it so it wont be lost. He has already helped someone else from church that had the same problem and theirs is fixed now. So pray it can be saved and fixed.
So needless to say this post will be shorter then planned and obviously with no pictures to go with it. If it is not all lost then I will make a post later with all the pictures I wanted to post.
Like I said life has been busy and with Ian in school I still seem to not have enough hours in the day to get things done. Ian is loving school and is doing very well. Alex has been so upset that Ian is going to school and that he cant go. I thank God that He helped me find a mommy and me class I can tale him too that meets 2 times a week for an hour. He is learning so much and is having so much fun. We have had fun days of painting shirts and a fieldtrip to bates nut farm and it has a pumpkin patch. He had a blast and boy were we tired when we left almost 3 hrs later.
Well both my boys had their brithdays recently and yes I cried. Alex turned 2 on Sep 7th and we had a ball. He had an Elmo cake I made and he of course loved it. Ian turned 5 on Oct 12th and he wanted a Wall-e birhtday cake and it turned out very nice too. I will post pics later I hope.
On Ians bday I first went to train with my friend Shoshanna and Ryan joined us. We trained by running up a mountain trail doing alot of other exercises along the way, lunges, squats, pushups, kickes all while hold hand weights. It was a tough 1 hr 7 min workout but the view of the ocean was worth it all. I just loved how Ryan joined us and it was so fun to workout with him and have that semi alone time. After that we changed and we all walked the beach and took pictures and let the boys play too. We then left and had lunch and then went to a science place but it turned out to not be good and we left because Ian was not having any fun, neither were we.
But praise God there was a mall next door and they had 1.75 movies and we saw a kid one since we havent been able to go to a movie theater in a long time.
We came home and had dinner and opened gifts and they had cake. We stayed up as a family and watched movies together too.
Other then that things have been good and going just fine. I have just been training hard because camp is about 3 weeks away and I am very nervous.
Now with the big news. I wrote on Lauras blog that I had big news and a dear friend has been waiting long enough to find out.
AND NO I AM NOT PREGNANT. :)
Ok first there is nothing wrong with my heart. I wear a heart rate monitor for exercise purposes only. It is a thing that tracks your heart rate and lets you know if you are working in yur zone or if it is too low and you need to work harder or it is too high and you need to take it easy. It helps track how long you have workut for and how many calories you burned during your workout. It is a wonderful tool to have if you want to get really serious in yur workouts and to track how you are doing. The strap broke and I had to sew it back together and fix it until I can buy a new one.
Now for the recent update........
As some of you know and some may not know to date since Sep 2006 I have lost 120 lbs and gone from a size 24 to a 10 depending on the make since I can even get into some size 8s. I have not had sweets of any kind in almost 3 yrs ( Dec is my no sweets anniversary ), and eat very clean for the most part. My life has changed so much and this journey has been an amazing one and one with such growth.
Wednesday was weigh and measure day and the doc appt. Well I weighed myself and no change but barely .5 inch off of my waist, hips and calves. I was so mad, angry, upset, depressed and then I cried. I was upset that there was no real change after working so hard but then I was upset and cried because I let this affect me so much. I was upset because I let my sense start to control me and I almost felt ashamed to tell you guys. I felt defeated and didnt want to go to the doctors. But I stopped, wipped my tears and really thought about what was going on. I realized I have changed in so many ways and I am stonger and more fit, for goodness sake I lost my chest and I have so little on top now. I knew I could not let my feelings control me and had faith that one day my body would show all the hard work I was doing and will keep on doing. I am not going to stop or quit just because my body is late for the party.
So off I went to the doctors and prayed for good news and was willing to except what ever the outcome was. So the doctor saw me and took all my vitals and asked alot of questions. He told me I was in VERY excellent health and was very proud of me for all the hard work I have done and even shook my hand. He said I have made some hard life changes and kept up with it and was very proud of me. He looked me over and said I was good to go. I have a blood preasure of 108/67 and he was amazed since I am 31. He was happy to see i am in such great health with no physical problems and nothing holding me back.
So
Drum roll please.....
I have been given the refferal to see the plastic surgeons on base in San diego, Balboa, to have ALL the excess skin removed and on their dime.
WWWWOOOOOHHHOOOOO.
He told me I could not be anymore of a better candidate for the surgery and knows I will get the all clear. He said I have atleast 10 + lbs of excess skin alone on my tummy and a bit more on my inner thigh and butt. He said that what i see on my stomach is NOT fat but all the excess skin that just wont go away unless by surgery. He said no wonder you cant loose anymore inches off of my waist because there is no more fat to loose. I about cried and hugged the doctor when he said that.
He saw how my skin just pools when I am on all fours or when my leg is extended and it all hangs. He said he was happy to put in the refferal and knows there will be no problems when I see the plastic surgeons.
He said if in 2 weeks I havent got my refferal letter to call them and i will be taken care of. I would then make my appt with them and they would just give the all clear and then schedule me for my surgery. Now he doesnt know if they will do it all at once but I would know more when I see them. There could also be other areas they would need to take car of due to excess skin but the plastic surgeons would know more.
I left that doctors office on cloud nine and cried when I got to the car. All my hard work was finally paying off and I couldnt loose anymore in the areas that had all that excess skin. I felt so much better because I leaned on my faith no matter the outcome and i now get to see the fruits of my labor.
So as you can see this is big news and I am so excited and so is Ryan. I know if this is truely Gods will then the rest will all fall into place. I love who I am no matter if I have the surgery or not. I have prayed for so long about this and if I should even do it at all. But since learning so much and during my prayers and the people I have talked to I feel at peace about this. This will like the doctor said help stop any problems from arising before they happen and they will.
So the more I know the more I will keep you udated. and I will definately let you know the date when I do. Thank you for all your prayers and support and I love you all.
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